A nomad whose home is Love

It has been really long I don't post anything here. Well, life has moved in al possible directions I would say. We have gone to South America for 6 months, got engaged, saw all these beautiful landscapes, got inspired and had many ideas, and are now back in The Netherlands.

Maybe for the first time in my life I have a real sense of building up! A sense of getting serious in life.
I guess it has to do with the decision to marry and to build a life together. It pushes me to make choices of where I want to live, how do I want to live and more and more what mark do I want to leave on this Earth.

After moving for almost 2 years, I now feel the need to stop and to be fixed in one place. One place from where I can go to many places and to be found by many people. Being all over the place, everywhere and nowhere at the same time, has been very important for the past years. I believe to set me free from the conditionings of staying, and returning always to Brazil. It has helped and has thrown me into the world. But now that I have reached the freedom and mobility that I wanted, being stablished in Holland, for now I no longer feel the need to move much anymore. Rather to stay and to move out due to invitations.

At times it is not easy to keep walking and trusting this somewhat crazy path of a nomad whose home is Love and a deeper call. It makes me tremble and makes me confuse. But at any new reward I am again strong to hold this vision and keep building this life, opening the path for those who will come after me.

Que Oxala acompanhe!

Our path, our paces

Finding out our paces, figuring out our path!

"I've been told there was so much more to wake up for.
I guess you make me see it!"

Farewell Holland

As I prepare myself to go to Mexico next week for the COP16. I also prepare for departing from Holland and possibly to be living in this country for the last time. It is difficult to predict or to make plans, but both me and Maarten feel we are going to be off for some while ad the the journey we are about to begin in month will take us to our future home.

It is a funny feeling t be leaving so soon though, and even if I don't feel much attached to Holland, out house and the life we live here it still feels like a farewell. So I am spending the next weeks wrapping up it all and making sure I had a chance to meet and be with the good friends I have made here in these almost 6 months. After all what we take from the places is always the people we meet and the good moments we spent.

Tenho andado desapontada com as pessoas ao meu redor, principalmente no ambiente, so called, organizacional. E me perguntado, o que acontece com as pessoas, seu brilho, sua sensibilidade, quando estao em organizacoes? Quando se juntam ao redor de um proposito que lhes eh comum e acabam messing around um com o outro??? Parece que a partir desse momento, deixam de sentir, ser capazes de expressar amor, compaixao e compreensao para se tornarem cobradores, devedores, chatos, impacientes...

Por que numa organizacao um passa a se relacionar com o outro de forma tao diferente?

Sinto me frustrada, sem forcas para querer e poder mudar isso. A clareza que me vem a cabeca eh que eu nao sou feita para estar em organizacoes. Trabalhar em parceria sim, com varias e diferentes pessoas de acordo com cada projeto, momento, impulso, mas nao mais fazer parte de um conjunto de pessoas que se move junto, que se constitui como uma organizacao. E um formato que acaba me tomando mais energia do que me dando energia, me tirando do meu centro de poder e de qualidade e profundidade do que faco e orfereco. Em voo solo me sinto livre e com legitimidade para criar ate o limite da minha imaginacao, sem precisar compromise para me encaixar e ser aceita por ninguem ou por lugar nenhum.

Essa clareza me da chao e certeza de que desde o dia em que escolhi sair da ultima organizacao onde trabalhei para me tornar "consultora independente" tenho trilhado o caminho que para mim faz sentido, e que melhor pode servir as outras pessoas. Como isso no coracao, terminarei meus assignements nesta nova organizacao onde estou e seguirei voando livre, levando verao de grupos a grupos ao redor do mundo, como faz uma boa andorinha.

Viva as andorinhas!

Earth time and Sky time

Today it's been one year that I have left for this journey, or rather, should I say that I got on the golden thread of The Journey?! A journey which has taken me from the lakes of the Danish Kingdom to the canals of the Netherlands, passing by the deserts of Syria, the Grand Bazaar of Istanbul and the golden dome of Jerusalem.

In one chronological year I have crossed thousands of years of the ancient traditions, peoples and religions. In one chronological year I have experienced in my cells the unmeasurable time of God, Love. In this one year I have been dancing in between the time of Earth and the time of Heaven.

In one chronological year so much has happened that I can't even fit into the hours and days of our conventional calendar. The pace of time has accelerated in times of joy, surrender and truth. And it has slowed down, as if almost to stop, in times of attachment, control, moaning and distrust.

In one chronological year I have flowed in the flow of Yes and have felt the infinite source that responds positively to it. At a point where there are times when it's almost impossible to separate the things which happen on the time of Earth and the things that happen on Sky time.

I wonder then, where lies the line in between each of them. Is it in our minds? Is it in our rules? Is it in the nature of things? Or is it in IT all together?

One thing I am learning...
Love travels on Sky time
Papers travel on Earth time
Intention travels on both Sky and Earth times

From butterfly to golondrina

Yesterday I was told my me dear friend Elena that I am now transmuting from a BUTTERFLY to a GOLONDRINA. That because butterflies fly in one region only and golondrinas fly all year long, hoping from Summer to Summer, from region to region around the world.

Interestingly enough, says the wiki:Golondrinas: Son aves cosmopolitas, y frecuentan una gran variedad de medios, desde las regiones semiáridas hasta los bosques, generalmente cerca del agua. Muchas especies anidan en grandes colonias.(wikipedia)

So may it be, that in this transcendent process, I am able to hop from city to city in the most diverse variety of places, finding Summer and bringing Summer, to a great number of people as possible and as do the golondrinas, gathering with other golondrinas.

Insh'allah

With Bare Feet

I had stepped on this land before
But I had not stepped on it with bare feet
I had not yet let myself to go into this earth

With bare feet I am with my soul naked
uncovered from any barrier which separates us

With bare feet I am letting the earth read me and to absorb it all
Molding and shaping itself to my soles
Connecting, concealing

The earth was cold
half frozen, half asleep
awakening from a long time within
under covered by the thick layers of snow

The snow has been melting away
as the sun is coming out slowly
to caresse our faces with its tender light a
and inspiring life.

The earth is awakening
becoming greener and present

The birds are singing in the morning
as to salute the sun and the brighter days

With bare feet
I am able to feel it all
let the earth speaks to me
sweet and almost silent whispers brought by the chill breeze

With bare feet I surrender to the mysteries of this land
and the magic it is holding for me
as I let it speak and manifest through me

And I pray for it to last
for my stay to be long and bear juicy fruits
when Spring had come and gone
and it will be Summer

With my bare feet.