Standing at the platform of Ankara’s train station she said: “Keep making business with God. And take this booklet written by Efendi. Shall it be your passport for your journey”.
I have spent three days with Aslihan and her daughter Zaynep in Ankara coming from Istanbul on my way to Mesopotamia. Aslihan is a beautiful mignon lady with the loving hazel eyes who is a disciple of the Sufi Master Ahmet Kayhan for the past 27 years, and who have taught me much about the relationship with God and with life.
At her early 20’s Asilhan went to India and lived in Osho’s Ashram for a total time of one year and a half and there was initiated a disciple of his philosophy. Back in Turkey, young Aslihan got seriously ill. Being keen and open to non-traditional medicine, she went to London to be in the company of her sister and get treated by the different methods (acupuncture, reiki, aurosoma, and so on). Back in Ankara, one day a close friend brought her a message from Ahmet Kayhan, also called Efendi – which in Turkish means Master. Her friend was given the message by Efendi advised to pass it on to the wisest of her friends. Sometime later Aslihan was then invited to go to the Master’s house, where he would host and welcome everyone in need for assistance and spiritual search. Aslihan’s illness was not getting any better at that time, she would be very thin and weak and also unhappy with her life. But despite the doctors freighting diagnosis she says she always knew she was not going to die. Instead, that this was a death-rebirth process she, for some reason needed to go through. Slowly slowly as her visits to Efendi’s house got more and more regularly and she started following his advices, learned from his wise words, re-energized from his powerful presence, practiced the namaz and studied the Qu’ran, young Aslihan found back her health and track into life.
As the years passed she would develop this unconditional love to herself and her Master, trying as much as possible to be in his company. She would consult and inquiry with him on the subjects of spirituality as much as on her daily life decisions and themes. Soon he would tell her that for her evolutionary path it was important she found a partner to be her spouse and that she became a mother. And so she did, after meeting a kind and gentle man who was friend of friends, having the agreement of her Master and most of all, feeling deep inside that was a new step she wanted to take, Aslihan fulfilled what was meant to be her woman destiny, marrying a good man and giving birth to two beautiful girls.
Being in relationship with a man was the next lesson she was meant and willing to have. To being able to share her life with another person, from the opposite sex, loving and being loved as just one expression of the love for God. Marriage was the constant and everyday practice of compassion, forgiveness and understanding of herself through the other, as her mirror… as her own witness… as a part of herself.
Sixteen years later, Aslihan divorced from her spouse to keep her journey with her daughters and since seven years they she has been learning deeper and deeper the role to play in modeling the masculine and also the feminine for them.
“Bearing children, says Aslihan, is fun and it is the most wonderful thing in life!
My little daughters have been my mevlana since I got pregnant from both Both my daughters are gifts of my master… First one is an in-vitro baby on a single trial as I had been diagnosed ‘not able to concieve’ and the second daughter’s conception was right after he came to my house to give us a visit – which per se was already something great – and he said to me, I came here to renew your marriage vows and to gift you with a child”.
Long conversations we had sitting on Aslihan’s living room or at the porch of the outside garden. These conversations all turned around “our businesses with God”, going from the relationship with our mothers and the act of becoming a mother and stepping into one’s motherhood phase, to loving relationships, professional work, Turkish history, Sufi tradition, Islam and the stories of our lives and families.
Aslihan and Zaynep opened their house and hearts to me, offering with incredible love, generosity and tenderness a safe and sacred space for sharing, learning and growth. Together we have created the bounds for a life longing, meaningful and authentic relationship.
Their house, company and energy were a touchstone and an important entry point into the next phase of this journey I am in as I ought to go further into the East. It strengthened my alignment, reassured my soul calling, nurtured my inner child, challenged the letting go of my maiden and blessed my blossoming woman with Efendi’s energy.
There I could make my luggage lighter, as I have been assigned to do, letting go of the material means which have kept me attached to beauty and lust, offering them to other dear women who can take their magic forward and beyond. It was special and magical seeing the bright into young Zaynep’s eyes as I gifted her with oil pastel crayons, the chilly skirt, the orange happy dress and the bubbly blue funky hand luggage. Also powerful was to meet Eda to whom the colorful pair of summer pants, shining blue t-shirt and dancing green skirt will do well and hopefully uplift and bring trust to her wounded spirit.
To all of that I am most grateful and appreciative, to God and the enlightened beings who have brought our paths together at this time and enabled our encounter to be beautiful and generative of life and love.
Ankara 31st of July
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